Thank you so much, Lord. My heart is full of thanksgiving to you for the blessings that overflow into my life in abundance. There are so many people who are afraid of asking you for your abundance and there are those who ask for abundance with selfish motives; but you have proven to me over and over that you prefer that we talk to you most - and if we are asking in error, it's no big deal, you aren't standing there with a whip raised over our heads, the only thing that will happen is that we will get closer and closer to you because we are talking. Even talking in error is better than not talking at all. You strengthen the weak and you do "course corrections" on those in error. You look at the heart. You see our need for You in ALL that you are. And so I thank you. Your love and patience and teaching are the best in the world, or in the universe. There is truly no one like you.
I looked at my finances and saw what You have done. When Dennis was out of work for 6 months, You paid our bills - every one - no matter if it was a wise debt or a foolish one - it didn't matter to You. We committed to pay each one and You honored that if we come to you and asked. And You humbled me through that experience. Asking You for money filled me with fear; but you showed me Your Love that is like the best Daddy I could ever imagine. You didn't condemn me; You didn't judge me; You didn't chastise me. You only told me to add it all up regularly and watch. Our income was less than our bills - it looked impossible. But You not only paid them - You paid them on time. And You did it month after month. And in addition; You supplied the money to pay our tithe; You supplied the money for groceries and gas; You even supplied money for my "wants".
I hear preachers say "God supplies our 'needs' not our 'greeds'." And now looking back I have to laugh. You are an awesome Daddy who LOVES to supply not only my needs but also my wants. You showed me what 'greed' really is and it is truly an evil thing - it is devoid of love and caring and compassion. Your children who truly KNOW You cannot be filled with any kind of 'greed' - it would be impossible. We should have no fear of this temptation.
Finally, I asked You to fill me with the 'superabundance' You said that You have. And I didn't see anything for a while. I even got discouraged and began to wonder if 'they' were right and asking for this was 'wrong'. But gradually I saw why you had me make the lists regularly. It's been 2 years now and our income has almost doubled; we have paid off 1/3 of our bills; we still go on our vacation; we bought our home (paid cash);we still go out to dinner now & then as we have desire; we still buy things we 'want' over and above things we 'need'; and the list lost it's power to cause fear in me long ago - it only serves to prove Your 'good and perfect will' in my life.
I don't talk about this to anyone, because this has been between You and me (and Dennis); and we have kept it as 'our' personal and intimate relationship with you.
But now I have the proof, right here in these lists, of how truly powerful and loving You are; of how FREE Your love truly is; and how eager and ready You are to 'overabundantly supply' ALL that we need or want or hope or dream.
This kind of love only produces more humility - not greed.
Thank you, Jesus. Jesus, I love you.
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