Tuesday, November 9, 2010

my special enjoyments

Found my paints - in the big tool box thing where I organized and 'put them away' several years ago.  Next to them was the last painting of a rose - the only one I saved and didn't sell.  Did you know selling a creation is a bit like selling a child.  Just seems WRONG.  I'm thinking I need to UNbury these things.  Like the piece of wood I saw at Home Depot the other day, and wanted desperately to UNbury my wood burning tool and carve a beautiful "praise-filled" word into it beside a languishing flower.  The smell of the wood while burning, was half the enjoyment, especially when using cedar or another fragrant piece.  I just recently unearthed 'writing' as one of my buried 'joys'.  I may have lost some of the technique, or 'correct-ness'; but I'm enjoying it IMMENCELY.
Why?  I wonder WHY?  WHY DID I BURY THEM?   WHY?  WHY?
Granted I was in a world that tried daily to kill any piece of individuality possessed inside.  Retail.  I think of it as an evil world now that I spent 8 years deeply entrenched in it's death grip.  And I long so desperately for all my friends who are still there - to be set free.
I understand the Veteran who holds a bit of guilt for surviving a war when so many friends died.  But, I keep hoping that my escape will encourage them to step forward and find life for themselves.
I pray that one day I will be in the position to 'take them with me' - every one who longs for freedom and creativity in life - a chance to breathe and live free!  It isn't just a political thing; it's a 'life' thing.
FREEDOM!!!!  It is real.  It is possible.  And if you believe - it will happen.

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